- A free thinker -

The Braun Buffel

2011-01-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

Once in a blue moon

2011-01-16T22:54:00.006+08:00

A little bit fortunate tonight to find that the night is still young and worthwhile for me to revert to my long lost humor and put on another piece of writing.

Time passes like flashes of light. There are few more days to go from today before my working duration hits 7 months, though it's been looking like a decade. All this while I've been wondering if I've been wandering in the wrong place.

Career, something that often worries me whereby I've been constantly questioning myself if I've been going after the right track. I knew this wasn't my path to trail and I'm eager to make a little change but for the sake of what that is still down to me.

Just about 7 months ago when I stumbled into working in Singapore, little did I expect to face culture shock finding difficulties in adapting to life away from my hometown. In fact, the culture and atmosphere in this neightbourhood country are indifferent. I was merely astounded by the fact that I'm no longer a student and I need a break to accept this revolution. It all happened so quickly that I didn't even have ample time to digest what was happening around me, but certainly I never regretted my decision.

There were so much hopes and anticipations before I began to exchange my schooling life with the working life, though months later the dreams vanished. Tiredness and hecticness are parts of those which destroyed my hope, and my lacking attitude itself also should take the blame. Throughout the working period I realise I didn't have huge interest in my current profession as a site engineer. What I did was merely blinking both my eyes hoping that the day will end soon, but of course I did hold my responsibilities as well as I could.

I learned some little things throughout this period of 7 months. I dug out my weaknesses more than my strengths.

My weaknesses :
1. Always let the nerve got the best out of me, which leads to stress at work.
2. Immature in dealing with things and people.
3. Poor management of time and paperwork, not systematic enough.
4. Pessimism
5. Not a good decision maker, greatly dependent on others when it comes to making decision.
6. Unfirm, get easily shaken off.
7. Neglected my friends because of working.
8. Began to stick with unhealthy lifestyle.
9. Poor understanding, stubborn minded.
10. Slow in improvising.

I'm glad to know where my weak points lied at. At least, I have slightly improved on some of them nowadays, or perhaps not. Deep inside I knew if I were to carry on with my current profession for maybe to the extent of years later with a positive mind, I might polish off the said weaknesses and become a great figure. Because engineers are always trained to be great!

Every morning when I got awake, the thought of forfeiting my current job kept calling. I don't like to think about giving up half way. It's always easy to retreat, but to stay on and put on the real fight is the breathtaking part.

So, to bring this to an end I came out with the idea of sorting out the good and bad points of my current job which will help with my decision.

The Good Points (12 pts)

A good platform for me to learn, without huge pressure from the top management or bosses. (1 pts)
Great to work and learn alongside with several great figures, such as the residential engineer, the team leader, those working alongside me and some of the subcons. (2 pts)
A good place for me to learn to become a more systematic guy. (1 pts)
The pay is not too bad. (1 pts)
Not boring as my job requires me to not just stay in the office but also mobilize myself around physically at site. (1 pts)
If I don't carry on with this job, what else can I do? I haven't even decided. (2 pts)
It helps to create strong character. (2 pts)
Staying abroad, learn to heave an independent attitude away from home. (0.5 pts)
Relaxing and flexible working style, the job is based on the progress on my site, and for what I have accomplished. My movement is not quite monitored unlike working in the office. (1.5 pts)

The Bad Points (15.5 pts)

This job is risky and dangerous, staying less aware will jeopardize my life. (2 pts)
Tiring, need to stay up for late casting which makes my home time less. (1 pts)
I don't speak proper English here, talk many many lousy nonsense, die die must cast. (1.5 pts)
~~Sometimes a supervisor.~~
~~Work under hot sun.~~
Saturday also working, sometimes sunday also working. (1 pts)
Less time for friends and family. (1.5 pts)
The site itself has problems, things done with no firm approval and drawings are not confirmed. (0.5 pts)
It's a professional job, but not really professional. (1 pts)
Feel a bit confined, restricted to site area. (1 pts)
Learn to have strong temper. (1 pts)
Unhealthy, hazardous. (2 pts)
It's not really what I want. (3 pts)

So, this has so far been a standpoint of mine which will hint my next imminent steps.

A dangerous call

2010-12-30T19:50:00.000+08:00

So... this is a very close look to my life as a site engineer.

EOS 400d 9 AF Points

2010-12-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

A point of view from the compact LX5, shot through the optical glass of 85mm F1.8 lens. The 400d has now become a rarity, being the predecessor of other similar models such as 450d and 550d. It was once at its prime, where nowadays it has lost a bit of prestige having been superseded by the newer models.

That is how the body of a DSLR system sticks to the ongoing trends. The body keeps on changing and upgrading at quick pace, and the lens stays still and await for the callback.

My 3 years old 85mm is still alive today. Still strong in taking some great quality portraits even though it is only mounted on the 400d. It could do much better on a full frame DSLR especially on 5d markII which has reasonable noise level even at very high ISO setting. This allows comfortable shooting at low light condition without the need of using tripod and I don't have to worry about getting any shaky image.

ISO400, F2.8 1/200sec by 85mm F1.8 on EOS400d

ISO400, F4 1/25sec by 50mm F1.8 on EOS400d

More LX5 Macro

2010-12-25T23:04:00.012+08:00

Tried macro at home... wish I could have some fabulous rings to shoot at...

ISO 80, F5, 1.6 sec long exposure

ISO 80, F2.8, 2.0 sec long exposure

ISO 80, F2.5, 2.0 sec long exposure

ISO 80, F5.0, 1.3 sec long exposure

ISO 100, F5.6, 1.3 sec long exposure

The above were again shot by the P&S DMC-LX5 camera. The image quality is not that bad after all, and it's macro ability certainly reserves its place in top ranking for high end P&S macro photography. Not to mention about pure Leica series, LX5 could bring down other similar P&S camera such as canon G12 and the coolpix P7000.

Finally, would like to end the macro topic with some photos of hers. The watermarked was shot by my EOS400d.

It's Santa Moment

2010-12-25T12:33:00.014+08:00

Took this shot when the ticker struck 12. The LX5 does possess a strong macro ability not just to shoot clear macro like this, a focus range as close as 10mm just between the object and the glass is such an overwhelming factor. (Wondering if any scratches incurred, since the objects have hit the glass multiple times)

The engrossment of the eve was fully displaced to this small little town in Singapore, Orchard. Almost fully compacted, it seemed.

Yee Chien and I went down to took the air once we got off from work, as early as 9.30pm, as usual. It was tight and we simply couldn't catch our breath by squeezing through the crowd. Worse, we didn't even bother to catch a glimpse on the happening around.

Got home at eleven. Perhaps spending a precious and peaceful Christmas night at home commemorating the birth of Jesus is somewhat better than joining the vigorous crowd whom celebration is just for the sake of celebration.

Night Scenes at VivoCity

2010-11-30T23:05:00.006+08:00

Having dined with my friends at Sushi Tei located in VivoCity which is an hour distance away from my current home stay Yishun, I quite fortunately came across an opportunity to catch a few night shots by my 2 months old LX-5 compact camera.

Being perpetually a die hard Canon fan, the decision of spending a moderate sum of money on other brand does seem to be a little out of norm but it fell on the fact that it was just a choice of compact camera. If it were a DSLR, I will never have slipped to alternative brand. 100% no to other brand.

I made some important comparisons between several high end compact cameras and it turned out LX-5 fitted my criteria. I will write on my own a brief review about this camera when I begin to grip its features better. 2 months together with me but it is yet to get intimate with me, and I knew my hectic working days should take all the blame.

For the moment being, I will post some photos of night scenery taken around VivoCity at that night.

The Panasonic Lumix LX-5

6 months in Singapore

2010-11-21T15:09:00.020+08:00

Having worked for almost 6 months in Singapore so far has let me forgotten some of the past things that I have never wanted to forget. I seem to grow older quicker and indeed, working as an engineer does seem exhaustive as ever. Engineering is not just about problem solving, it carries more than that and you need constant consciousness and good management to make sure everything happens around is all under your control. I reckon this doesn't just apply to engineers but too to other persons working at other areas.

If it's your dream, then go and achieve it. If you coincide with heavy hurdles, don't let yourself get carried away and never let your dream fade.

Instill strong principles and good disciplines in your daily chores. Before you can even think of becoming successful, you need to deal with yourself before dealing with others. Mind your attitude, and look at things from a wide perspective. How you get things under control counts on how to get your mind under control.

Always believe in changes, and have faith in yourself and others for all the changes that are going to take place. Nothing is fixed as even a mountain could change its shape and lose its topography and why should we not change for the sake of goodness? If we were born without feet we still could make the pace. If we were born without great intelligence, we could still make a better living. If we were born to be introvert, believe that no one is born that way. Thrust your way to become more extrovert! If we were born to be in poverty, thank god for giving us a chance to treasure our living in an absolute modest way.

Be positive, and be thankful because all the events serve some purposes. For good or bad reasons, we still make a learning.

I'm 24 now, and I concede myself as a slow and slacking learner who has yet to step on a firm track. For the time being, I barely behave like a good and constant learner or neither do I look like someone who will succeed in the near future.

But, I do want to make sure that faith and hope are always implanted in my thought, I'm not trying to wait for miracle to happen. I am trying my best to make a change for change.

Anyway, several photos are posted here after accidentally bumping off Orchard Street on some particular date. Take your chance to have a glance.

What do we want in life

2010-08-19T23:49:00.003+08:00

We can't possess many things in life, but we can choose to let go some things in life. Knowing what you really want is much more important than knowing that you're great for having done some great things in life.

Life is endless and sluggish when you pay less attention to people's advice, show no interest to the things you do and even live a life with no aim to achieve. , In contrary, life seems much faster when we know how to appreciate the things and people around us and learn to treasure what we're doing.

Each second counts and while we're still living, our task is to ensure it's spent wisely. Spend more time knowing yourself, find your weaknesses and repair them, and never stop amending yourself.

Life is not easy, indeed it has never been easy. If this moment you're feeling uncomfortable with what you're doing, get rid of that for awhile and re-think what is best for you, in a rational manner. If the best for you is getting out from what you're doing because that's not the dream you're chasing, then go ahead achieve your dream.

If what you're doing is the dream you're chasing, then don't let your dream be shaken off so easily. Stay in and don't give up because you only grow when you encounter obstacles.

A good life always comes with a good thought...

So, find the wisdom in your living...

A comeback

2010-08-19T00:14:00.002+08:00

Having written "Peace" 3 years ago while it's still pretty fresh in my mind now, I reckon I'm trying to make a "comeback" now. I'm not gonna and don't wanna be a wicked passion guy.

Not gonna let this be lengthy because the next one will be.

CNY 2010 Snaps

2010-02-27T16:44:00.010+08:00

Some individual shots

Lil 2yrs old cousin

Bro
Siew

Out of Focus

2010-02-25T00:17:00.006+08:00

What could have happened to the teenager who came to peninsular few years ago to pursue his dream?

His life is a lot more different now than before, having piled up his mind with complexities and confusions. His life has been constantly fluctuating, sometimes he can concentrate on what he does, sometimes he can't, and most of the time he can't.

He's totally out of focus isn't he?

**I wish I could be asleep for years and wake up later as a fully revived guy with an enhanced attitude but that is not possible at all because by then things will never have changed and I will turn out being the most irresponsible guy. And because life is all about learning and exploring that's why even though I don't know what have actually gone wrong to me, or even though I know where my problems lie on, I just couldn't stop there and give up.

Don't be a slack guy who spend half of his lifespan thinking the unnecessary.

Be firm, clear-minded, and most important focus!

"Sometimes in life we will find ourselves drown in the state of complacency, but it doesn't matter because you need to find your way back again. So, Ngiam, just be focused okay", told one of my great lecturers who have yet to see any improvement in me.

"Be strict to yourself, time is always there for something important and meaningful. Don't waste it.", told one of my best pals.

**I'll be a complete fool if I were to neglect those awakening quotes.

Over & over

2010-02-16T02:05:00.008+08:00

I told myself repeatedly that I should be doing what I should have started doing long time ago and eventually I haven't.

I reminded myself to start caring for what I should have started caring long time ago and eventually I haven't.

I thought to myself about how my parents turn down their own happiness to build mine because that's what their happiness is all about, and the thought vanishes and I am still the slack guy.

I watched everyone surging forward with their own steady tempos and I wished I could follow, but I'm still the same guy who did not charge.

I asked myself almost everyday if I have an ambition to achieve, it all came to nothing and I'm still that guy who doesn't know what he really wants.

What that guy really wants in his mind is very simple, what he can all think about is a general success. But how can he become successful without a specific aim and proper mindset? A goal is amazingly an element that drives people forward in life... without a goal post, you can't score!

It's pointless dribbling the field out of nothing when you can't actually see your goal post. That is exactly the circumstance that the guy is in now, or is he not?

He seems to be pretty enjoying his moment of wallowing around in nowhere.

After all, he has come this far and he just can't stop there.

Isn't now the time for him to start pretending like an adult?

Find your way back, or at least find your way somewhere.

All the best!

Life without soul

2010-02-03T21:23:00.010+08:00

I'm increasingly trapped in a subconscious mind, falling asleep, half asleep, and then asleep again and I know something is going really really wrong but I just couldn't find a solution to it right now.
One should reckon the pressure is mounting because I'm not the type of guy who just has too little things to bother, I do have certain important responsibilities, just like others. In fact it feels like I've given up my routines, daily chores, and my aim.

No longer I see myself living an ambitious life trying to be a better person who looks for self improvement day by day. I'm completely lost in the midst of becoming a perfectionist... really lost... and in fact no one else but me can help myself. My life is completely off-track now, with my poor damned soul wallowing nowhere near in sight.

When I saw those people working day and night, week after week repetitively to earn a living regardless of what professions they held, I questioned my self integrity. If they can do it, why can't you?

I was there, vowing to myself to change for better, but things don't get better.
I was there, trying to get some inspirations for myself, nothing gets better as well.

Will my life last in a manner that is least expected?
Or... can I still attempt to make a turning point that has resounding impact on the rest of my life?

Help yourself, Tze Teng...

Valentine's Special Gift by REEBONZ

2010-02-01T14:32:00.012+08:00

For a perfect Valentine's day, what else can be more special than this creatively bended golden nail that vividly shapes the heart of love between you and your loved one? Its golden sparkling surface simply renders it perfect and even makes it look grand. It is indeed one of the most imaginative Prada products ever made and having it as a Valentine's gift for your loved one is just sheer and utter perfection. The strong unique shape will surely nail down the hearts of you and your loved one permanently!

For more details, please visit http://www.reebonz.com/.

Beer

2010-01-24T09:21:00.002+08:00

"Quoted from http://nutrition.about.com/od/hydrationwater/a/beer_Nutrition.htm"

Drinking heavily leads to liver damage, cardiovascular disease, osteoporosis, pancreatic diseases, severe thiamin deficiency and some cancers.

Nutrition Information

According to Michael Jackson, the Beer Hunter, Trappist monks drank beer to sustain themselves during their Lenten fasts. They called their beer "liquid bread."

We don't tend to think much about the nutritional aspects of beer, but according to the USDA National Nutrient Database, one 12-ounce serving of regular beer has the following nutrients:

Calories: 153
Protein: 1.64 g
Carbohydrates: 12.64 g
Calcium: 14 mg
Magnesium: 21 mg
Phosphorus: 50 mg
Potassium: 96 mg
Sodium: 14 mg
Zinc: 0.04 mg
Thiamin: 0.018 mg
Riboflavin: 0.089 mg
Niacin: 1.826 mg
Pantothenic Acid: 0.146 mg
Vitamin B6: 0.164 mg

Beer is actually a good source of folate, niacin, magnesium, potassium and niacin.

Drinking Too Much

While drinking one beer per day may improve your health, heavy drinking will not. In fact heavy drinking has the opposite effect. Heavy drinking is defined as more than 21 drinks per week for women and more than 35 drinks per week for men. Drinking heavily leads to liver damage, cardiovascular disease, osteoporosis, pancreatic diseases, severe thiamin deficiency and some cancers.

Who Shouldn't Drink Beer?

Beer drinking isn't for every one. Some people have personal or religious reasons for not drinking beer or other alcoholic drinks. That's OK. All of the health benefits of beer can be found in other foods beverages. The following people should not drink beer, or should speak with their doctor before drinking beer or other alcoholic beverages:

Pregnant or breast-feeding women should not drink beer. Even small amounts of alcohol can damage a developing fetus.
People with alcoholism or drug addictions should not drink beer.
Young people. In the United States the drinking age is 21, in Canada the drinking age is 18 or 19. Other countries vary.
People with liver, pancreatic diseases, or really, any type of chronic disease should speak with their doctor.
People with gout should avoid beer. Gout is very painful and is triggered by alcohol.
Diabetics should speak with their doctor.
People taking any type of medications should speak with their doctor. This includes over-the-counter medications.

Cameron Highland 9-10 January 2010

2010-01-14T13:32:00.021+08:00

Cameron Highland is one of the exceptional places in Malaysia that has extraordinary cold climate and being there you need more than a handful of outfits to cover yourself up. I had gone there 2 years ago and again, it fell on the date of 9 and 10 January 2010, that a group of exactly 41 people made up their minds to be the guest of the highland. It is a freaking cold place for people like me, and of course there is no need to compare this place to any other places in foreign countries that hit the temperature as low as less than zero degree celcius.

We visited several places like Rose Valley, Cactus Valley, Raju Hill Strawberry Farm, Boh Tea Center, and the Pasar Malam.

If you expect yourself to have a lot of entertainments in Cameron Highland, you would rather have visited some other places like Genting Highland because Cameron is indeed a relaxing and refreshing place to stay where you don't expect too much of extraordinary entertainment. Our visit was to create some splendid memoir amongst all the course mates because this might be the last moment we spend a great time together.

As usual, some chosen photos will be posted up and here they go you grab.

Night Shooting (01/01/2010)

2010-01-02T01:51:00.009+08:00

It was nothing but sheer fun and sudden surge of enthusiasm that me, Jason (a.k.a Micheal Jason) and Chew Liang (a.k.a CCL) went out for shooting at that particular night. Jason was with 1000d plus his new Tamron 17-50mm f/2.8, CCL with 40d plus 50mm f1.8, and me with my old 400d plus 50mm f1.8 as well. We took our shot in campus.

Exhausted Jason started declaring ceasefire while peeking at the war between me and CCL, only to find that the time has almost reached 12. I took out my DIY Flash Bouncer and attempt it on Jason and below is what came out.

Also, I managed to snap some pictures of Exam hall, Mosque, Lecture Hall and the quiet street at night.

It was indeed a lucky night because CCL was willing to model for me in order to fulfill the experiment on my paper board DIY flash bouncer test which was mentioned in the previous post. So so sorry to have made him look dull throughout the modeling session, which was done outdoor.

My conclusion is, the DIY bouncer is half complete. There wasn't any softening effect on the flash and in the end, the person's face still come out overly glossy. I think I should have the almost correct construct, but the material isn't appropriate enough because what it does is merely encounter the coming flashlight and bounce it towards the object in higher lightness, which makes the object looks whiter as can be seen. It is lacking of some softening intermediate like silk to completely demolish the glossy look.

DIY 580exII Flash Bouncer

2010-01-01T17:25:00.005+08:00

Just made it today and haven't had a chance to try it out. Here's a picture of how the bouncer looks like, made from manila card with one side sprayed with black.

Gotta try it out soon!

Derek's Birthday 21/12/2009

2009-12-23T16:52:00.029+08:00

Once again, happy belated 23rd birthday to Derek Eng who has been a coursemate of mine for almost 4 years. Hereby, I'll endeavour to describe this guy in brief. Coming here from the same hometown, he has slightly overstepped some of us in many ways, most significant his daring trait which encourages him to venture into something extraordinary. Though at times he appears cool and unapproachable, if you try to create a mutual conversation with him, he will turn out become outspoken and friendly so you just have to bear with that.

Here are some photos to grab!

"Oh don't worry, I'm good!"

Christmas Delight

2009-12-16T23:51:00.003+08:00

And some individual shots here taken on the third day of PC Fair in Penang.

Global Warming

2009-12-16T19:54:00.006+08:00

Thank you

2009-10-27T01:43:00.002+08:00

I'm grateful for you being there for me, to stand by my side and are still there each time I fall. Nothing is predestined, but maybe it's just me myself who don't seem to persevere, for all the circumstances that have come.

Best Individual Pose

2009-08-23T00:19:00.026+08:00

Just excited...

A serious look...

A luring smile...

Naughty...

Trying to be serious but couldn't make it...

The Hoe-Man

Shockingly creepy...

A smile that kills...

Exactly a Comedian...

It's the Hello Kitty that matters...

He's just a little too over...

In the little world of his own...

The best pose when you don't know how to pose...

Even "I" also can pose...

Finally, here comes the best pose, by Mr. Ian Ng Tee Yian ......

Something wrong?

2009-08-03T02:59:00.003+08:00

Photo of the year

2009-07-26T16:43:00.009+08:00

Shot by Joshua Entol

When old friends get together...

2009-06-14T00:37:00.008+08:00

10 June 2009

Semenggoh Trip

2009-05-25T22:19:00.018+08:00

There was a short trip to Semenggoh to see Orang Utan last Saturday which was joined by a few friends together, Alvin, Siew Siew, Kennedy, Chee Khoon, Alexis and me. The entrance fee is RM3 without student card and RM1.50 otherwise. Other than us, there were also a few groups of foreign visitors whom I guess showed much more prevailing curiousity than the local us. We managed to arrive just before the feeding time and the deep entrance was still close and we have to wait for awhile before we could get in. I was told earlied by David that the feeding time is at 10am and 3pm, we were there in the afternoon.

Once it's open, we started our jungle trekking and received warm welcome from those orang utan.

There weren't a lot of them, if I'm not mistaken there're 6 to 10 and most of them are very small sized, the eldest is the grandma. We weren't allowed to take our bottles out as they might grab them from us.

So here they come...

And many of us were staring with eyes widened, and with feeling of awe.

There are more photos but sorry to say that some of them are censored. So, I guess that's all for the trip and post this time.

It's a miracle!

2009-05-18T22:38:00.010+08:00

Last night, a friend of mine wanted me to try using a type of soap which she described as powerful and has miraculous effect. I was asked to use it immediately, so to her satisfaction, I accepted. I thought she was merely giving too much exaggeration on the product she was offering, but after 2 hours there comes a surprise, that something I never thought would have happened to me...

This is the result that shows a vivid change on my skin, especially my face...

I find the soap so effective that it doesn't bring any side effect at all... However, I did not thank my friend for what she did because I know everything is just surreal and I am still the same me, with the same appearance.

Nothing changed, and there is no such thing as miraculous soap or whatever facial cream, what changes the whole thing is just Portrait Professional Software.

Guess 1

2009-05-18T22:11:00.003+08:00

It is my favourite quote which sounds like this...

"It's not who I am underneath, but what I do that defines me."

Where do you think it comes from?

Having my internship

2009-05-10T09:38:00.020+08:00

Recently, I've been having inadequate time (but not busy) to attach myself to the keyboard for doing all those online chores. I'm currently having a 3 months training in one of the engineering consultant firms in Kuching, known as Jurutera Jasa (Sarawak) and I find most of the people in the company very friendly and helpful. In general, there're a few sections in the company that are always connected to each other. They're civil section dealing with all those civil works like drainage system, flood medication, hydrology, highway and so on, structural section dealing with those structural design works, geotechnical section dealing with things related to soil, and water section dealing with those pipeline system, for water supply and waste water management and fyi, I'm in water section. In every sections there are section's head, engineers and draftpersons and the company is owned by 4 directors.

I can't say I've learnt a lot throughout the 2 weeks past there but I will definitely challenge myself to give out the best, at least explore myself to what am I capable of, and what type of job styles suit me best. I've literally wasted 1 year of my uni life by being an extremely unethical scholar and I'm gonna feel remorse no more but to keep moving forward for reformation, to see my light eventually. I will strive to regain those knowledge that I was reluctant to pick up last time, in a wise way and not to lose myself again.

Anyway, that's all for my post this time and I know it's kinda short of content but anyway, some of my favourite photos that I would like to share for this week...

This is Siew Siew's brother's gf who looks so elegant.

Alexis who always looks that good...

Alexis and Siew Siew...

Siew Siew... waiting for someone...

......

2009-05-02T10:00:00.002+08:00

My Coursemates (5 out of 80)

2009-04-15T13:36:00.010+08:00

This is certainly just for fun, at least something that I wish could accomplish before completing my study in Uni, briefly introducing and describing all my coursemates in the blog. Those I think I know them well, I will lengthen my description and contrary to those I know not so well.

First of all, Penang-ite Koon Teik, a photography enthusiastic who looks very steady and some say, one of the most good looking guy from our year. He's a good and intelligent quick thinker, and though at times he might make a little sloppy decision, still he makes a good decision maker. He's a very understanding person and can be a real good listener and a great friend to have. Patience is one thing that he lacks though.

Hooi Yee from KL, one of the prettiest coursemates of my batch. I'm not really close with her, but in my opinion, she's an extraordinary girl who has an ideal aim in mind. I'd been her groupmate once and she made a pretty good leader, very precise at doing her works and managing things quite well. She's one of those who top the list in Dean's list chart of our school.

Chee Keng from Pahang, a quiet, cool, and very calm person who is extremely unpredictable at times. He carries a peaceful mind with him everyday, hardly voicing out a word throughout the ongoing conversation amongst friends. He never seems likely to lose his temper except when you see him at basketball court he will show some bizarre but lovely attitudes. A Liverpool fan he is, the enemy of my favourite football club.

Johorian Tee Yian, a very generous friend who never dares to reject others. He's a knowledgeable guy with a good memory. Visiting gym is one of the chores he will never miss every week and if you have a chance to meet him, you could vividly notice his brawny arms. His attitudes are somewhat amusing and he is like playing a role of comedian in real life situation.

Alex Poi from KL, a smart and awesome looking guy with a very settled mind and though not close with him, I think that he's a very firm guy because he looks very calm and steady all the time. One thing that worths mentioning is his ability to dance very well, has performed in several important occassions in our school and did show some outstanding performance.

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2009-04-10T16:42:00.002+08:00

Hehe

2009-04-02T00:33:00.033+08:00

*Update*

Recently Ker Pei has helped me alot, I mean as a poser. Hope he doesn't mind me putting up the photos of his elegant and engineered look.

Took most of them in our campus. Any comments are welcome, and sincere thanks to Joshua who helped me control the lighting and so on.

My Modified Watermark

2009-03-28T21:03:00.006+08:00

The watermark created on the previous post was a bit too hard. Here's a new watermark which I feel is softer.

USM Polymer Eng Night 23 March

2009-03-27T22:43:00.022+08:00

My funniest shot of the day, see this and find out what's weird.

I wouldn't have gone shooting at the event without the assistance of my master, Mr. Joshua.

*Update* added some photos stolen from Joshua's directory.

Can give me more strength?

2009-03-24T22:33:00.018+08:00

I've been searching around every inch and every corner in myself and I couldn't find something beneath that can give me the inner strength to cope with my life today. I'm just an entirely weak and easily penetrated person.

Mum, Dad, I'm really sorry for what I've become today. I know you won't be reading my blog (and I hope you will never) , because I don't wish to share my disappointments with you, all I want is to share my success and glory with you, and I hope that day comes.

Right now, I'm just nothing but a failure. Yeah, I'm caged in negative thinking because I'm down, but still with clear conscience and not being too emotional, I'm just depressed... depressed of the way I am, because of the way things are... It's something that I couldn't control, and I'm not asking god to give me strength, not asking for a jump-over in life nor anything else. I just need time, time for me to alter my mistake, and to become a better person and most importantly, a better son.

I'm not writing this for consolation from anyone. It's just something that my disappointed heart wants to express so that at least, I'm still aware of what I am doing, and hopeful to be more motivated after writing this.

*Not asking God because I'm not a Christian. I'm a free thinker. Hehe.

EQ

2009-03-18T12:29:00.011+08:00

I wrote a blog 2 years ago, PEACE and while writing it I was in a conscious state and non-attached to the real situation. Until today, I've come across several situations that made me realise how weak and faulty I am, and that something is amiss in my life. I learn that I'm not good in controlling my emotion, I care too much about unnecessary things until it sometimes causes difficulties to others, and the direction towards the aim of my life, gets driven away easily when problems come. I realised them, and I hope I learn to overcome them, because if I don't, I will have a difficult life, so will I bring difficulties to others.

A close and old friend of mine ever told me this...

"If you're rushing unconsciously to feed your desire, the crucial period of your life may just end up faster." ... I was only able to discover the real meaning only in the recent years.

There's another friend who quoted that...

"Every scholar might have a very strong and high IQ, but they just might not have a good EQ, and the best way to not become emotional is by dragging yourself out from the problems causing it."

Sometimes we need to be emotional because we are all human, but it's really important that we know the boundary of our actions so that what we do when we are emotional does not badly affect other people and their life.

Playing with 85mm f1.8

2009-03-06T14:23:00.016+08:00

8. This one I think the best (Photographed by Koon Teik)
Again, please leave comments on photos that you think can be improved.

One of my most handsome coursemates

2009-02-24T00:33:00.013+08:00

People always call him Fatt Chai.

Is he really Leng Chai?
Yes, he is...

Late Post

2009-02-23T23:35:00.009+08:00

Using 85mm prime.

Wide angle canon 10-22mm.

If you have any comment about the photos, feel free to leave your message. Looking forward to improve my skill, so which photo do you think can be improved, please let me know. (Note: the photos are editted in terms of color saturation, make more contrast)

USM CF Concert

2009-02-21T02:47:00.022+08:00

I have nothing to do with the CF, not a member nor a person intended to join the fellowship. That day, I was requested by Joshua to help at shooting during a concert organized by CF, I simply agreed. This time around, I brought along only portrait lens, indeed, I don't have any standard lens for taking event photos except for the kit lens. I didn't literally use the kit lens throughout the event since I just wanted to focus on using the portrait lens and didn't really bother about taking wide photos.

With 50mm prime.

With 85mm prime.

With long focal length lens provided that it can't zoom at all, you really will face difficulties taking wide photos. That's why in events usually people will use 17-50mm or 24-70mm as it allows wider angle photos, especially group photos. Notice that there isn't any group photo from my shots? The event was held at one of the lecture halls.

A little update

2009-02-13T05:20:00.017+08:00

Been pretty busy recently and found very limited time and thought to update my blog. The weather condition in Kuching and Penang are totally different. Kuching has been hit by heavy rainfall recently while there is not even a drop of rain in Penang, at least for the moment. Not gonna make my blog lengthy but to end my blog with once again, a few photograph for glance. Catch with you soon.

(The preceding photo is taken with Off-shoe flash, casting side shadow.)

The rest are with ceiling bounce with flash on camera.
Note : Permissions were asked before the posers' photos were uploaded.

Big Group Went Visiting 2

2009-01-29T17:22:00.026+08:00

I started this blog 2 years ago, during the period of CNY 2007. BIG GROUP WENT VISITING 1 was published that time, and the following was supposed to be posted last year, 2008.

This year, there was a big group of us includes

1. Wan Jiun
2. Wen Liang
3. Siong Kai
4. Ying Ying
5. Maw Jin
6. Lee Ping
7. Chiung Lin
8. Micheal
9. David
10. Evelyn
11. Hui Xin
12. Chang Ted
13. Kevin
14. Alice
15. Melissa
16. Su Han
17. Chiou Yann
18. Lee Sze

and me... I'm not supposed to consider myself in because I stopped visiting after the 2nd house. First destination was Chiou Yann's house, followed by Alice, then mine...

Everyone is pretty much the same...

Siong Kai... still as cool as usual...

MJ... still with that kind of "Oh Yeah" expression...

A lot of chit chats took place when everyone met up. If you do notice from the name list, Pei Ni is missing out from the list this year. She is instead having her CNY in Singapore... Wui Ngiap, Nguan Soon and Joanne too were not joining us... How did Edmund celebrate CNY at his place?

Time flies... do you remember what were you doing this time 2 years ago? No, I don't. But I do realize the clock is ticking very fast. Try observe the physical and mental change in people around us, our parents, relatives and our dear friends. Our parents grow noticeably older, if you happen to get home just very once in awhile, and the younger brothers and sisters, and cousins, grow noticeably bigger in physical, if you only meet them once in awhile...

And you yourself... how much is changing?

Several shots of the day...

And lastly, a group photo grabbed from Mr. Kevin, the smart guy above wearing spectacular spectacle.

Happy Chinese New Year :)

Shooting in front of mirror

2009-01-26T15:23:00.004+08:00

This is what happens when the flash light is directed straight to the face. The mirror will reflect back exactly the same amount of light that reaches its surface and start to expand again, which is the same thing as the normal on-board flash which can only flash to the front.

It's different story when you point the flash head somewhere else rather than direct to the subject. Lets adjust the head 90 degrees to the side where there's a white surface wall that will bounce back a very much softer light, brightening the subject in a more natural manner. In this case, there's slightly a shadow on the other side of the subject where there is no light coming from, especially if the bouncing is halted by the dark surface of wall from the opposite.

This is what happens when you bounce the light up to the white ceiling and the light will bounce back in scattering form, brightening the subject almost as a whole.

45 degrees up!

45 degrees down!

Upward!

Downward!

Do you see the difference?

Chinese New Year's Eve

2009-01-26T01:32:00.033+08:00

I came back to Kuching on the day before Chinese New Year's Eve using Airasia, having a long bus trip for about 4 hours from my campus, Nibong Tebal to Duta, Kuala Lumpur. Reached KL in the afternoon, and like usual, taxi and skybus were the transports used to reach LCCT. Exactly four of us were going back together on the same date, same time. They're Hua Ming, Siew Siew, Angeline and me.

Like usual, in the process of waiting for plane's arrival, I couldn't resist my strong desire to have a click and snap.

Siew Siew, my coursemate. (At LCCT)

Hua Ming, my junior from other course, also my roommate. (In the bus)

Angeline, junior coursemate of mine. (At LCCT)

The next day, on cny eve, my brother brought along her girlfriend to have lunch together with my family. I don't have a chance to take a shot of my parents as they tend to avoid the camera.

Simple dishes that made up our day.

Below are some photos of my brother and his girlfriend.

I never mentioned about my bro's gf's name. Her name is Rubbie.

Shooting Portraits

2009-01-24T00:38:00.015+08:00

While hanging out at shopping complex, I managed to take a few snapshots of this lady who is also a close coursemate of mine, Siew Siew. I tried to adjust the setting on external flash to get a suitable lighting condition for each shot which I felt my achievement still isn't quite satisfactory so far.

The photos uploaded were basically taken with the canon 580ex2. There was actually sufficient light for me to take those portraits without the assistance of the flash but I still prefer to use it, hopefully to see the difference.

The difference between with and without an external flash unit.

Comments (negative/positive) will be greatly appeaciated as I'm still learning in the world of photography.

More portraits

2009-01-23T03:06:00.010+08:00

Portrait Shots

2009-01-23T02:41:00.016+08:00

Recently taken several portrait shots using 50mm F1.8 prime lens, with assistance of external flash. The 50mm lens itself provides adequate bokeh, and the image is kinda sharp. Cropping and editing included.

Gathering

2008-12-16T23:24:00.009+08:00

Well...

2008-12-16T00:12:00.005+08:00

Words can't describe my feeling now...

I'm just...

Excited...

Update

2008-12-14T03:56:00.004+08:00

It’s time to move on

2008-11-17T01:36:00.001+08:00

All this while, I’ve given myself very little opportunities to slow down my life, sparing little moment for a sensible judgment over my past and present deeds. Well, I could use no words other than guilty and immature to describe my feeling. So often have I neglected to be a selfless person, refusing to put necessary efforts into some areas of life, being so consciously unethical, and even forgotten at times of the sweat, blood, and tears that were splashed on me by my parents, and my brother.

My attitude towards my anticipated achievements in life, has been extremely unethical until I paid no effort to push myself forward. I’ve been stuck for a long time wandering around in uncertainties, and without significant purposes. I didn’t live with clear conscience. I felt like half-conscious, knowing what was going wrong but did not take initiative to better it. I knew I was stepping on the wrong edge and yet I didn't sway.

I won't let this last for long. At least, I’ve come to understand my overall situation by now and hopefully I do learn something from it. It’s time for me to let something go and move on again.

Unlucky

2008-11-09T14:21:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it feels like I'm the unluckiest person in the world, that everything seems like not going my side, love, friendship, study, financial, family and so on. It's pathetic to think like enduring the world that barely listen to what my mind has to say, and doesn't seem like understanding my situation, nor putting down their sake just for the sake of my goodness. Haih... the feeling is indescribable and unavoidable and I believe many people have had endured it before.

But the truth is that I don't really need to make people around me to be in my shoes just to let them know exactly how I feel. Life is never fair, and I'm the decider of my own fortune. I'm the one who should think for myself, understand my own situation and make things right instead of adhering with those negative thinkings. It's easy to fall into negative areas of thoughts, by turning things into woe, hatred and other negativities. When my best friend turns against me, I give a final solution to myself by hating him. When I fail big tests in life, I choose a negative solution, by turning moody. These are all not necessary afterall.

Negative thoughts arise very easily if I don't control them well. Since I've chosen to be a more sensitve thinker, I need to avoid myself from turning into a full negative thinker. Despite of facing difficulties and unfairness, I need to remind myself everyday if I'm still doing things the right ways, standing on the right tracks, and not to do anything sorry to my parents, my family and my friends.

Penang Trip

2008-10-07T19:21:00.017+08:00

I haven’t been updating my blog for almost half year. Self-demotivated, unfilial, half conscious, and guilty are the words I will use to describe myself for the recent past. Anyway, it wouldn’t help much by lingering too much on the past. Mistakes done are done. The important thing is now, who I am now and the way I am dealing with myself right now. I am the constant reminder for myself, the right track keeper and also the decider of my own life. To do things the right way, to think in the right manner and to realize life’s a learning path are not easy things to accomplish, it needs great perseverance and we need to remind ourselves from time to time that we are on the right track. Don’t slip!

Last holiday (Hari Raya), a few of my old friends came to Penang and they are Su Han, Lee Ping, Maw Jin and another Su Han’s Friend, Pik Ching (Wrongly spelt). Su Han and her friend initially reached my campus and were brought for a short sight-seeing around the campus. We cycled around the campus. They were fortunate to have taken some memorable photos.

Soon, we met up with Lee Ping and Maw Jin who stayed exactly on Penang Island, at Ying Ying’s Rented house. Haven’t had I mentioned that my campus is actually located about 1 hour distance from Penang Island, so we only waited till the next day before all the friends met up together. Lee Ping, MJ, Su Han and her friend were brought to quite some famous places, and they’ve basically tried most of the famous food. Hope they really enjoyed the trip. I’m not going to spend more time on describing what places have they visited and what have they done in Penang. The photos will tell.

Before I forget,we also met Chee Yung and his girl friend. A group photo including Su Han and her friend, Lee Ping, Maw Jin, Siong Kai, Ying Ying, Chee Yung and his girl friend, and me! was taken just at the place we gathered. The person who took the group photo for us was one of our old friends who helped to arrange the entire trip. Yeah, those who joined the trip will definitely know who he is. Those who don't know, play the guess. He is too reluctant to take a single photo and that's why his photo is barely found here.

Please don't hold a grudge against me! I know I didn't ask for permission before putting your photos on my blog, like I usually did.Hehe

Photos of the day (4) - Canon EOS 400d

2008-06-03T11:18:00.002+08:00

Photos of the day (3) - by canon EOS400d

2008-05-30T01:03:00.003+08:00

Photos of the day (2) - By canon EOS400d

2008-05-30T00:59:00.005+08:00

Photos of the day (1) - by Canon EOS400d

2008-05-29T23:16:00.008+08:00

Coursemate's Birthday

2008-05-12T22:45:00.016+08:00

11 May 2008 was the birthday of one of my coursemates, Yee Chien and there was no big party for him. However a very small celebration was specially held for him at mamak restaurant and it clashed with the time during the play-off of final EPL (English Premier League) matches.

Our present for him? Besides a cake, we had a little small birthday gift for him as well and we spent effectively one day to prepare for it...

It started off with a draft drawing like this...

Then...

Frontside

Backside

Finally for all the hardwork we've done for him, we managed to easily force him wear on the shirt while having the celebration for him...

The process...

It wasn't professionally done. However, it was a sincere piece of art work drawn and painted by us. Hope it left a nice memory for his 22nd birthday. Happy Birthday, Yee Chien...

Stuck

2008-04-11T11:59:00.004+08:00

At this moment, while everyone is steadily moving on forward...

I feel like...

I hope throughout the confusion and imprisonment of my mind, I manage to acquire some worthy learnings out of it...

Never look down on yourself or get demotivated even though...
- you're a thousand steps behind of others...
- you're failing to accomplish most tasks that you've been assigned...
- you're not seen as valuable by others...
- you're the last person to be picked when there are no others left...
- you're the first person to be picked for accusation and sacrifice...
- you're never appreciated for what you've done...
- you're not looking as good as others...
- you're mentally insufficient...
- you're an extreme failure of life...

Self demotivation

2008-03-26T01:12:00.000+08:00

今天下午，当我在校园一条弯曲的路道上骑着朋友黄色的两轮车时，我发觉原来我的人生已失去了方向,失去了目标。这是不是暂时性的呢？我总觉得我看透了好多事情，几乎缺乏了目标，那充满了目标和活力的智腾死去了吗？他是否还再在乎自己的前途吗？为何可以那么自私呢？难道他再也不在乎其他人对他的期望吗？

还没成人的那些日子，生活就像没有目标那样，活得无忧无虑，自由自在。担心也很少。可是，心里却知道总不能永远过着这种日子。人总在学习，日子一天一天的那么过，看到的，听到的，还有学到的东西越来越多；不知不觉自己也开始有了人生目标，而正因为有了目标让我渐渐地对自己充满了活力，下定了人生目标沿着那个方向往。

可是，这几个月，我发觉自己变了。表面上也许看起来很放得开。可是，实际上已变得非常没有出息。我的那种活力，我的人生目标，已渐渐地远离我了, 他们会回来吗？

Before and After

2008-03-04T20:47:00.003+08:00

Take the first step, and get started now!

2008-02-23T12:17:00.005+08:00

"You don't have to be great to start, but you do have to start to be great."

It needs great bravery to start on something that you deem as difficult. And certainly, you will feel the difference even just a little bit, if you really dare yourself to get started. For instance, if you're ashamed for having spoken broken English in front of others who can speak much better than you, then you probably would prefer just keeping your mouth shut rather than continue with your broken speech. Lets say you're not well educated and again due to shame, you will not dare to share with others about your self opinions, especially in a groupwork, etc. But things will be different if we forget about the shame. Don't let yourself controlled by the "fear", you should be the one controlling it. Don't let your actions ruined because of afraid what others might think of you. Don't make your life meaningless because you never dare to get started. Don't deem difficulty as an obstacle, deem it as a rare opportunity given to you, to make some differences in your life. So, start now!

"千离之行,始于足下."

For every long journey in one's life, it requires the first step. If you never dare to take the first step, you'll never achieve your aim.

My Favourite Quote #1

2008-02-16T03:29:00.003+08:00

不要尽言所知,而要尽知所言.

Don't speak all you know, but know all you speak.

Mixture Photos

2008-02-06T16:31:00.001+08:00

The Lack of Patience

2008-01-30T04:37:00.000+08:00

I can’t deny that I lose my patience at times. I don’t really like queuing up long waiting for my turn, I don’t like listening to lectures for hours and sometimes will just skip them as I like, I can’t wait for weekends and public holidays to come, I would not let my favorite tasks to be completed and presented within long period because I want the outcome to be seen almost immediately.

Impatience will kill a person. Because of impatience, you make no choice for yourself but to think and do something in lesser time than others, in the end, things might just not work out 100% as wanted. Because of impatience, you tend to be emotional, and you restrict your mind from digesting, and then you just can’t adhere to the rationality. Sometimes, impatience might just ruin whole your life even though you’re not really someone with bad personalities.

Being emotional, impatient, depressed and sticking with other kind of negative behaviors are obviously something that we never can control well if we are not a firm positive thinker. It’s not easy to be a true positive thinker, and it’s never easy.

Say, you’re about to drive through a traffic light, while the light is green and you’re just a short distance away, you would almost definitely press the fuel harder once the light turns orange. There’re few reasons of doing so, you might not want to wait for another green, or you might not want to waste your fuel while your car is static, or perhaps you’re rushing. Most of the time we find it safe to do it that way, however a little bit did we realize, in inner, we’re gradually losing the ideal of patience, nurturing an extra bit of impatience which indirectly affects other aspects we face in life.

Impatience makes us lose our temper and rationality, doesn’t it? Some things in life require spontaneous response and not much thought. But most of the time, actions require considerable thoughts, and why are humans so stingy to spend longer time, to ponder the course of their actions? Losing temper is another form of impatience, if you lose it, you lose yourself. And when you lose yourself, you might just lose other precious elements in your life. But sometimes human attitudes are just too awkward and too much until we cannot resist ourselves from losing patience towards them. And sometimes life seems so unfair, especially when people around you are being unfair to you (if you’re being sensitive). A friend of mine told me this, “Either take it or leave it”, for instance if someone keeps mouth-fouling you, take a deep breath and think for awhile, if you take it seriously, who would be the one victimized eventually? If you leave it reasonably, you’re actually building stronger shield in your mind.

Sometimes, when there’s no firm awareness in our mind, emotionality seems to take over the rationality within us. At first, you think you’re rational enough, when the first attack comes, you start being doubtful and your mind gets a little unstable. When the second attack comes, emotionality starts taking over and once it happens, 90% chance you’re already being condemned in negativity. In this case, prevention is better than cure. A wise person will never let himself trapped in emotionality. Because if he really is trapped, only time can heal. A friend of mine told me this, “When you’re being emotional, it’s the “feeling” that controls your “mind” and actions, and when you’re rational, your mind controls your thoughts and feelings”. So the best way is still to prevent, start by building awareness.

Personally, I admit that I’ve been through a lot of negativities regardless of thoughts or actions, and now I’m trying my best to delve deeper into positive areas in my life, looking for best ways to bring out the positive me which I hope will discharge the negativities of people around me. I’ve said before that I’m a very sensitive guy, nevertheless not able to make myself be any less sensitive, the only way I could do is to be sensitive with more mature sense.

I still fail to cope with myself sometimes, and to be honest, the reason I’m writing this is also to make myself think better. By expressing my thoughts and opinions this way, I believe will unclamp some positive thinking in my mind. And for those who’re reading this, I would like to apologize for my unthoughtful actions and deeds if there’s any, and sorry for being impatient, emotional, and overly sensitive at times.

That’s all for now, it took months for me to update my blog, hehe…

Everyone's learning... You learn, I learn, we learn, they learn...

More Photos

2008-01-02T11:37:00.000+08:00

Photos by my New Canon EOS400d

2007-12-25T19:59:00.000+08:00

Got my new camera few weeks ago, had taken a lot of photos and here I uploaded a few of them which I think are nice...

Reviving DB

2007-11-08T13:22:00.000+08:00

I will try to constantly post up some news obtained from other sites like thestar.com.my, nst.com.my, news.bbc.co.uk, and so on. I guess that's one way to revive doubleclicker.co.nr, a site which has been inactive for almost one year. Hope fully those joining the forum will also post up some news there, especially issues of local crimes to bring up awareness amongst our families, friends, or just normal acquantainces.

So, here's it.

Click on the link below to enter...

http://doubleclicker.co.nr/

It's Been Long

2007-09-24T03:34:00.000+08:00

Yeah it really has been long since I've last updated my blog. It's not because I was busy doing something else, just that my mood wasn't really onto the world of blogging recently somemore with the fact that I was really having no ideas of what to blog about. If my posts have been read through for a couple of times you might notice that I actually seldom blog about my daily life activities, hardly expressing my concealed feelings or whatsoever and I usually prefer to express my opinions about some facts and understandings of life. Well, that's exactly what I want to be, a profound philosopher. I don't profess myself as someone with great understanding of life, by the way I'm just a learner of life who tries to share what I think I know, and absorbs what I think I should know. Well that's the tzeteng at the moment and I do hope this feeling isn't a kind of "3 minutes heat", I hope it lasts long.

Talking about 3 minutes heat I seriously have to admit that I did face several occasions in which the motivation suddenly fades when it was initially seen as if things were so fired up. Just like www.doubleclicker.co.nr, I still visit that site once in a while to prevent it from dying, however, little or perhaps no more enthusiasism do I have to revive it back to where it was last time.

Well, at least I still try to update my blog nowadays, maybe not as frequent as my friends do, but once in 1 or 2 months I believe is still okay right? hehe...

I'll be back to Kuching on 15 November this year and back to Penang again on 14 December which means my holidays last for about 1 month. Nothing much will be done during the holidays except spending time with friends and family and not to forget too, as usual, a gathering will be organized hopefully with more excitements and unforgotten memories this time, lol. Missing Kuching very much? Especially friends and family? Well in this case I can't really say no, but I do have to emphasize that I enjoy my life in Penang and even if I am back to Kuching I too will miss my friends and life in Penang, well it's been some time me in Penang, obviously isn't it?

Something that I face nowadays is very few people seem to believe my spoken words because most of the time I went beyond the boundary limit, terribly and unncessarily faking some facts for some unnecessary reasons. I couldn't blame anyone but myself for not being true enough most of the time, and I deserved being stared by others in suspicious manner even though I speak out the truth at times.

Other than that, I would like to emphasize on the importance of "moderation" in life. It's always important to take things in moderation, neither too far nor too near should we go. How good we measure the moderation is how much the wisdom we've got. If you want to have jokes, make it moderately, perhaps once in a while, instead of transforming your whole dialogue into jokes every time, that will certainly diminish others's beliefs towards you. When you eat, take the food in moderation instead of taking them in bulk or in extremely small quantity, that will certainly spoil your appetite sooner or later. If you want to show that you care about someone, be wise enough and never do a character that is not you, because you might cause others to feel uncomfortable and disgusted with such an unusual habit. When you study about something, never ever be too obsessed unless you are aware of where your boundary limit is, otherwise it might bring long term adverse effect to you although you might have achieved what you want, attaining temporary inner satisfaction, nevertheless destroying your other happinesses that never have you speculated. If you start a habit of sleeping late, let it be due to some reasons instead of treating it as your long term habit. To describe it as a routine that can be hardly changed is just a lame excuse, things are just up to your preferance and determination. Sleeping late I believe deteriorates our health and making ourselves lazier and lazier. That's why moderation is very important in life. Nurture it in your mind, your soul and I believe you can make a positive difference in yourself not only mentally, physically as well. Even though you take something more than usual at times, still, make it in the range of moderation that is humanly conceiveable. Life with moderation is a life worthwhile living.

So that's all for now, just a "short" update from me. I wish my juniors who are going to seat for SPM and STPM all the best and get straight A1s in SPM and 4.00 in STPM then come USM hehe... though with such great results you can always go for better choices.

Erm... lastly, there's again something as usual like I did last time, but anyway anyhow this is the latest one so if you're interested in answering my questions about how much you know me, then go ahead with it.

Here's it...

Create your own Friend Test here

Best Regards

tzeteng aka Javier Saviola

What's On Your Desk?

2007-07-09T11:35:00.000+08:00

Tagged by >>Kimberly, then by Yen Pin.

Slow reply I had, apologize I shall.

Without leaning forward too much, within arm's reach on your desk what are?

Very few things there are. In campus I am. Quite empty the desk is, because still early the time is...

My Computer
My Documents
My Handphone
Files and Folders
Calculator
Pencil Case

Tag no one I will...

See you again I shall but not so soon it will be.

International Chess Competition

2007-07-04T11:21:00.000+08:00

There was this international chess competition which was held by St John Ambulance Stampin on 30 June 2007. It was open to all Gaporians and a lot of juniors and seniors were there helping to make it successful.

Most of us were not very familiar with the rules and regulations of International Chess, hence the competition wasn't carried out very smoothly.

Kelvin Thian (The school leader) was the organizer...

Those who went to help were...

1. Siong Kai
2. Ying Ying
3. Joanne
4. Wan Jiun
5. Pei Ni
6. David
7. Micheal
8. Tze Teng
9. Victor
10. Ker Sing
11. Su Han
12. Chiou Yann
13. Johnny Kua
14. Cui Han
15. Ek Guan
16. Jing Jing
17. Wei Ling
18. Kimberly
19. Grace Tee
20. Sim Yi
21. Cindy Kong
22. Doris Yii
23. Shyh Ning
24. Rachel Lim
25. Sean Chen

And there were 40 participants but only 35 were present on that day.

The competition was supposedly started at 8am but due to some unwanted circumstances it was delayed to 9am.

Initially it was group stage, also known as Time Challenge Stage, each game must be finished within 25 minutes and if the time was exceeded, a draw would be given.

At about 10.45am we started the Knock-Out Stage and the whole competition was completed before 1pm.

Like mentioned previously, most of us were not familiar with International Chess.

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And some question marks were...

When a player has a lonely king left, will the opponent have limited steps to checkmate him/her?

When a player takes up a piece without making a step, is he/she obligated to complete a move for that piece? Or can he/she pull it back to its initial position?

When a game is at fault, like both the players don't notice that the king is in check and there have been a few moves after that, should they restart the game? Or should the player who is in check considered checkmated?

When there are 3 repeated moves made by a player continuously, is there something to be done?

When a pawn reach one end, can it only be converted into the unit of its own that has died, or can it be converted to anything, meaning that if a player has 8 pawns reaching the end, it can have 8 queens or 8 rooks, for instance?

And is this reasonable? Someone claimed that the fifth ranked pawn can make this kind of move...

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Good Bye My Love

2007-07-02T07:59:00.000+08:00

Do you like your boyfriend/girlfriend to always request a report from you of what have you been doing all the time?

Or do you like to report to your boyfriend/girlfriend of what you did, and what you did?

The question is...

Is it really necessary?

When both of you go for a date, what’s the first thing you do?

Do some praising like…

“Hey, I like the way you look today”
“You know what, you’re going to make me proud today”
“You look like a superstar, sweetheart”

Or we can simply become a little bit more humorous like…
“Oh my god! Is that you?”
“Wow, can you marry me?”

Or we can hurt them like…
“Sorry, I have another girl”
“I don’t like you anymore, sorry”
“You are boring, aren’t you?”
“I don’t feel like hanging out with you anymore, I think that’s all for us”

Or do you tend to ask for a report from your lover?
“What have you been doing today?”
“Tomorrow what do you do?”
“Just now you did what?”

Or perhaps when you call him/her…

“What are you doing now, dear?”
“Me ar… doing nothing lo”
“Hey, today I went to One Utama, after that I… then I… and then I… wow it was so fun you know! Then harr… I… then I… then I… then I…”

What do puppy couples do? I’m not sure how they do… but I’ve seen some of them saying something like…
“Say you love me please, say how much you love me”
“Trust me, I really love you, you’re the best and I will love you forever, dear”

It’s difficult for adult couples to say “I love you” because they just don’t simply say it out… but for those puppy kids, they tend to say it or else their partners will be unhappy…

Is your love really true? Or is it permanent?

During dating period, we used to hang out together, keeping our hands tight together, never let go, was so afraid to let you go… But when we became parents, it was weird for us to do that anymore… It’s very normal, isn’t it? But it doesn’t mean we don’t love each other anymore, it’s just that we do not express our love in the way we did before…

Love at first sight doesn’t really work all the time and even if it does, it can’t promise anything, can it?

Before marriage everything was so sweet, but after marriage things turned bitter. Have anyone ever thought of taking precaution out of this? Or do you just love the way he/she is, and that’s it!

Just because they love the way we are, it doesn’t mean they will love those around us like our parents and so on… What if few years after your marriage, you wife/husband insists of sending your parents to old folks home? What if he/she mistreats your parents? What if your wife/husband has some unbearably bad habit that you only notice after your marriage? Just because of who they are before the marriage, it doesn’t mean that it will be who they are after the marriage, because we never get close enough to know who they really are.

Love can be permanent but we still have to admit that it is fading everyday, by a little bit especially after marriage.

First time…

“Hi, nice to meet you, I’m tzeteng…”

Then…

“You look pretty today”

Then…

“We’ve known each other for 10 years, could you marry me now?”

After marriage…

“Hi, I’m back from work… Bye, I’m off to work again”

Then…

“Why don’t you look after our son/daughter? It’s your job anyway!”

Old age…

“……….”

Peace

2007-06-20T02:34:00.000+08:00

We were born knowing nothing. The mind was initially blank but it was absorptive, and because of that, the life with sweets and bitters started.

From that moment on, we started learning and seeking our paths.

We tend to hate someone who mistreats us, to be sad when we feel lonely, and so on. These are all the ups and downs in our life and every time they happen, learning seems to interfere and whether we like it or not, it will never stop bettering ourselves, instilling the ideal in all of us.

Greed? Jealousy? Hatred? Popularity? Arrogance? Or perhaps, simply with the concept of “Winning is everything” would unsettle our minds. Nobody really wants to lose, and people are always trying to show that they do something when they do something, aren’t they? Ultimately, the wisest act is to do something without being honored and yet, you never feel like craving for popularities and honors because you have already reached the peaceful state in your mind. And all that “known” and “unknown” won’t possibly screw you up anymore.

Jealousy arises when the trust and confidence are lacking. If the trust and confidence are put wrongly, or put at the wrong side, it’ll be worthless to get jealous. We aren’t getting what we’re supposed to get, that’s unfair and it’s the nature of human to get jealous and unsatisfied for that. And those who oppose the nature aren’t necessarily abnormal, in fact they have learnt to let go the unnecessary, keeping a peaceful state of mind.

Sometimes we might be the most immature person if we think that we are mature. And because of such thinking we may create arrogance in ourselves. To think that we know something, perhaps we never really know anything. To think that we’re better, perhaps we’re worse. To feel like winning all the time, perhaps we are losing ourselves more and more. It’s never wrong to think that we’re the better sides for the boost of self-confidence, but it’s absurd to occupy that thinking as a form of arrogance. If we’re mature, we won’t be arrogant because that’s not the act of wisdom.

Hatred? It enters our mind very easily and almost nothing can stop that if we never learn to control it. The negative behaviors in this world are so obvious and so few that when you feel them, instantly you hate them. And the more you think about them, the more they heat you up. That’s the nature of human.

Sometimes there are people in this world whom we really dislike because they’re just too terrible and horrible, and we can’t seem to look at their positive sides. If we continue thinking like this, we never learn to give away chances and in the meantime, we cease our learning, making another step farther in achieving a peaceful state of mind.

Life is supposedly a peaceful path with a lot of side ways that attract our immature minds. Up to now, we have almost entered all of them. Without those branches we’ll never know who we are and how strong we can be. The deeper we enter the higher the risk we hold and no matter how far we’ve slipped away from the initial path, we’ll still make a comeback one day. It’s just a matter of time and conscience.

Staying too long in those branches without making a comeback will definitely shape poor personalities which might be permanent. The only way to avoid being condemned is the ability to let go. The first few times we slip we might find ourselves staying unconscious for very long and hardly make a comeback. However, when we start learning to make a comeback, we get closer to our initial path which is by then with greater maturity and conscience and doesn’t let us slip that easily anymore.

After all, life is all about learning and the strongest enemy that can stop the learning process is ourselves, the failure to let go. Undoubtedly, doing it is not as easy as saying it, but it’s not impossible with firm determination and principle. It depends on the way we perceive things, how we allow our minds to absorb what is right and recycle what is not so right.

Life can be so tough and yet it can be so fragile too. If every step isn’t taken carefully we may end up being a retarded person. The right things are so obvious in this world that when you see them, you know they’re the right ones. And sometimes by opposing human nature we get to know the “necessary” and “unnecessary”, learning the wisdom and the ability to let go.

Life is so full of possibilities and obstacles that everyone has to endure with, and it doesn't really matter how unfair and mean the obstacles are, just be sure that we always make a strong comeback; a comeback to the initial path which is now of greater wisdom and conscience; a comeback that makes a big difference in ourselves; a comeback that we never anticipate; and most importantly a comeback to the peaceful path…

Cheers...

Mr. Chieng Leaving Today

2007-05-25T13:35:00.000+08:00

This is Mr. Chieng.

He used to be very patient to his students, putting endless efforts in teaching them and even exhaustion has never stopped him. A very funny person he is not because he's good in amusement, but his attitude is naturally funny.

"We used to disappoint you, playing, sleeping and doing other things in class and because of that we hardly lived up to your expectation. Yet, you never blamed us for that. It's a shame of us for not being able to do anything except saying sorry. "

Today, right at the moment I'm writing this, he's leaving for Australia and probably is not coming back to Malaysia anymore. He has immigrated there to be with his family.

With all of our heart, we wish you all the best in everything and have a happy life in Australia.

Thank you, Mr. Chieng.

Friends

2007-05-19T20:34:00.000+08:00

First time we met, our conversation went like…

You : See what see?
Me : I no see you le.
You : Don’t pretend la!
Me : ……
(Then you just stared at me in horrific manner while I looked at other direction seemingly to avoid you.)

I remember once we were all in my uncle’s house which was still under renovation. I was trying to show off to you all by jumping off a double-decker. It wasn’t very high, but I didn’t notice at all there was a spinning fan just above my head and it was extremely dangerous. Furthermore I was just a kid and could have lost my fragile head if I really had started jumping off. You managed to stop me from the attempt just in time. Thanks for saving my life.

I still remember that moment, when we used to walk together to the tuition centre, and on our way there, we would always have some funny conversations and jokes childishly trying to be a better joker. Remember that we always provoked the puppies in the bushes near the tuition centre, gaining their attentions to chase us so that we could run to our destination with them. But they always ended up staring and barking at us helplessly outside the gate, how excited we were.

We used to argue for unimportant matters, get angry and jealous easily, and even curse each other sometimes. When something went wrong, we always blamed one another even though we did not know the truth, and neither did we try to seek about it. We always wanted to be on the winning edge and having cold war had used to be the climate but it did not last very long since we were facing each other everyday.

Do you remember how we cheated in exams even though we sat far apart from each other when we were in primary school? It was like I signaled you and indicated the question number through the movement of my head. Once you acknowledged that, you would use other tricks to show me the answer. For example, by clicking your tongue would imply “D” as the answer, yawning is “A”, meowing silently is “C” and so on. We even had complete answer sheet for BM objective tests in school because we got the book earlier in tuition centre. It was placed inside our pencil box during the tests, we were the fastest to finish, scored highest too. We controlled our marks and had always made it almost full like 38 out of 40, repeatedly for every test. Until one day a friend noticed that and threatened to tell our teacher, we stopped doing that since then.

I remember one year (primary 1 or 2), you were like an enemy to me. We always fought, I hit you and you hit me back. There was once in the classroom when you were walking back to your seat, I put out my leg to make you fall down and you cried. Immediately my face turned red and my legs were trembling so badly as I feared the teacher would come after me. The next day you and another friend complained to my mum.

There was one day, we had fishing and somewhat due to impatience a few of us wildly got down the river and started fishing using hands and plastic bags. It was more efficient than using fishing rods and we successfully caught a lot of fishes. Sadly, they were all dead the next day. We would have released them earlier if we weren’t that cruel and naughty.

Chasing each other had always been a routine when we were in primary school. For no reason we just ran to one another and then started chasing until I got you, then you chased me back. During recess time, we would run to the canteen for our food, just like running for our life. Occasionally the teachers were in time there to pinch our ears. We only stopped running for our life when we were in secondary school.

I used to play and munch my handkerchief disgustingly making it so wet and used the tip of it to hurt others for no reason. I remember once you were sitting behind me, I can't recall the argument we had, but I did take out my wet handkerchief and smack you. You cried while I pretentiously acted like nothing went wrong.

Even after entering secondary school, we were still as naughty as before. Some of us were separated and some remained in the same class. I remember during recess time we used to rush to the canteen for “Kak, Cucur lima”, “Bang, Mi Jawa satu”, “Karipap lima” and so on. Everyone was squeezing hard to get their food and there were no teachers standing by to pinch our ears right in time. It was different than in primary school where the pupils lined up in order.

In form 1, you used to pinch me without any reason and then I would bounce back. We always fought recklessly and that was why we became “famous” in the class. I remember once, during form 4, due to constant annoyance by you in lab, I thoughtlessly pushed you down the chair and everyone in the lab including the teacher was looking at you, how embarrassing. But then, you still kept on annoying me.

While others have been spending their weekdays for homework and tuition, we had been wasting our time for football and Starcraft. We never really did our homework, always ended up copying blindly from others the next day. That was why during lessons we often got ourselves busy with copying others’ homework. Remember once during form 3 a nicely colored graph borrowed from a friend was destroyed by Cikgu Suhaimi? It was because we did irrelevant things during his lesson and we deserved the embarrassment, but our friend did not deserve losing her precious work that had to be submitted on that day.

Last time, we used to walk home after finished our school activities and visit Ah Meng Store to have drinks. When we were there, each of us would order 2-4 glasses of drinks, the table was always flooded even though there were just two of us. I think Uncle Ah Meng must be feeling pretty disappointed for not seeing us nowadays… lol.

We joined St John at the same time, but you gave up on it much earlier. We went for a lot of public and parade duties together and dominated the list in that particular year. We were so keen to join activities and never rejected any task and duty. There was a quote which we always used to yell at each other, “If you smell what the rock is cooking”. I remember once during a school sports day duty session in stadium, we were constantly disturbing the runners by persuading them to buy the “Dettol”s from First Aid Kit at reasonable price. No one was able to spot us causing the trouble because we were at a corner. You gave up on St John not long after that.

Remember what we did in class to stop teachers from coming over our seats to check our exercises? We put open umbrellas near the seats to stuck the place, ie to block the teacher's way. Somehow it only worked when there was raining. We showed how disrespectful we were by eating Mamee in the class while teachers were teaching. Remember in form 3? While others have been politely calling for teachers by raising up their hands or just "Cikgu/Teacher", you had done the reverse. You made "snake-hissing" sound to call for one of the teachers, how rude! Not only that, you told our sejarah teacher that all the teachers were "penakut" to face the gangsters in school, leaving bad impression to her. I will always remember the quote you used to provoke Cikgu Sohsamah ... "Sebab cikgu takut"...

Remember Socceroos? It was our first ever soccer team in secondary school, we broke the rule by secretly recruiting outsider to play for us, nevertheless we still lost. Remember SVG our first ever CS clan? And still remember how did we violate the rules in utopia game? With 11 out of 25 provinces in the same kingdom controlled by our own friends and they were all deleted at the same time, making the kingdom so innocent to have lost half of the players. We were too obsessed in the Utopia game.

In form 4 we spent a lot of time in cybercafés, didn’t realize how hard the money was earned. Besides, we had been slack in our studies and getting last few positions in class really served us right. We woke up in form 5, and it was not too late for us to amend. There were plenty of helpful friends who helped us to cope with studies. Without them, we might have done worse.

I remember that I kept bombarding you with questions. You never looked bothered and had been kept busy explaining to me. Because of you I started learning to think by myself. Because of you, I became more aware. Because of you, I ceased my negative learning and started moving in the right direction. Because of you, my life has changed. It was all because of you, my friends.

During form 6, we were caught by teacher playing paper airplanes and managed to escape though. At times, we even faked “gang fight” and it seemed real enough to lure the attention of everyone. I remember one day, we went playing paper airplanes in the school and there was no one else there except the school guards. Soon, the school ground was flooded by the paper airplanes and one of the guards came to us and warned us to empty the place right away.

There were so many terrible things you and I may have done. Sometimes things were ruined because of me and sometimes you were the one who ruined everything. After all, we did reflect on what we have done, didn’t we? Without these happenings I will never possibly learn to treasure the friendship between us.

Today, I feel lucky and thankful for ever having you as my best friends. Hopefully after all the unfair things I’ve done, I am still your faithful friend, am I?

Unimaginable Love (Updated)

2007-05-12T05:33:00.000+08:00

Does love hurt? I bet it really hurts when you know the one you love doesn’t love you. You love someone so much until you could do everything for him/her, including sacrifice your life for him/her. While getting too devoted in such love matter, you get completely nothing in return. The person you have a crush on is never going to fall for you. The question is, can you forget him/her?

Sometimes in life we have to make important choices. There is a saying sounded “If you really love her, then just let her go.” I don’t know if there were situations like this before which required us to make such important choice, to or to not let go the one you love. Well, they rarely happen in reality, but in movies, they always do.

Let’s have imagination together. ("him" is used)
Your lover works as an astronaut and his dream is to travel beyond the earth, exploring the universe, and it’s obvious that if it happens, he will never come back to the earth again.

Your lover has been constantly sharing with you about his dream and you know he puts the dream far more important than anything else. Nevertheless, he still loves you as much as you love him and it happens that you are always the only one who can stop him from doing something because he just listens to you. One day, his dream comes true. Your lover receives a call of information about a mission to go to both Pluto and Neptune for the first time ever in history. His eyes immediately turn teary due to joyfulness and then delightedly approaches and asks you “Dear, my dream has finally come true. You know it has always been my greatest ambition, would you let me go, please?” Imagine this situation really happens, will you let go of your beloved one, for the sake of him? (In this case we do not argue about your lover being selfish leaving you behind…)

Have we ever thought of the reason for loving someone? Does loving someone need a reason? Love her because of her smile? Look? Attitude? There are indeed a lot of reasons for that. Basically you just love his everything. Just like when you idolize someone, a superstar maybe…

Lets take David Beckham, some fans love him for his handsome look, some for his superb free kicks and ball crossing abilities, some just love him anyhow. Then we take Ronaldo, who won 3 times FIFA World Player of the Year. Fans love him for his superb dribbling skill, and for his dominant contribution in winning the world cup for Brazil.

Let’s say the data and memories from both the players’ minds have been interchanged. In other words, the body of Ronaldo now has Beckham’s brain, and the body of Beckham has Ronaldo’s brain. Can you imagine that?

To make things more understandable, by the other way round, let’s just say David Beckham has been physically transformed (without memory loss) into another person who just looks exactly like Ronaldo. Likewise, Ronaldo too has been physically transformed (without memory loss) into another person who looks exactly like David Beckham. If that happens, will the fans of Beckham still love the physically transformed Beckham? Or will some of the fans turn to physically transformed Ronaldo now?

Let’s take another example. Another interchange has taken place between Selina and Hebe. What will be the reactions from their fans?

I should add more examples... (Edmund became Siong Kai, and David interchanged with me)

Imagine that one day this happens to the one you love, all the sweet and bitter memories that you've been through, plus the thinking and behavior of your lover are transferred to the mind of another person (maybe a friend). What are you going to do? It will be extremely hard to accept that because you used to love his everything. But now what? Are you going to love the person that keeps the memories of your lover?

Obviously, these things will never happen in reality, they are just some absurd imaginations carried out to reflect some other possibilities. Love creates great impact and memories that are needed to provide strong bond between couple. If one day your lover has permanently lost all his memories and has to restart learning all over just like what newborn babies do, or has she permanently turned insane...

Will you still love him/her in the morning?
Forever and ever babe. (Quotes from "Click" movie)

Lastly, for those who still don't know this person, let me introduce him.

Inspiration For Life

2007-05-04T02:08:00.000+08:00

Some inspirational messages and quotes that I stole from net and they are somehow quite useful for learning, I think.

Note : Those in boxes/tables are the ones stolen.

Taking the first step:
How will you know you can succeed at something if you don't give it a try?

How will you know you can drag yourself out of the depths of your despair if you don't try?

How do you know you won't get that new job if you don't apply? How do you know...

Before becoming a success at anything, you must take that first step.

Sometimes we hear people say
"I've tried so hard, but I just couldn't stop thinking about the incident!"
"I've really tried my best, but I just couldn't forget him/her!"
"I tried already but I can't do it, really!"
"I already applied but still can't get any job, maybe it's just not my luck this time..."
"No matter what you say, I just don't understand. This subject is just not my expertise."

Perhaps
- They didn't really try hard enough or they did not think in rational ways.
- They have really tried their best, but they just need more time.
- They only submitted a few application forms, perhaps they should have submitted more.
- There is stubbornness in their minds which causes them look set to think they won't understand no matter how hard they try.
- From the surface, they have tried, that's what they claimed, but deep inside, they actually have not.

Happiness Now!

Happiness is to be found along the way, not at the end of the road, for then the journey is over and it is too late.Today, this hour, this minute is the day, the hour, the minute for each of us to sense the fact that life is good, with all of its trials and troubles, and perhaps more interesting because of them.

- Sometimes upon chasing our aims in life we seem to have forgotten about the meaning of happiness. Actually, obsession is nowhere good, we need to recall ourselves to the right path constantly.
- Pain is temporary, glory is forever. In the process of having pain, do cheer up ourselves sometimes, don't define the "pain" as something unwanted we have to bear reluctantly, in fact it is just something we have to put more effort on.
- "Happy go lucky" isn't really an appropriate attitude, or is it?. It diminishes the rational, you get sad and happy easily, don't you?

Setting aside special moments
Over the years, I have noticed that it has become more and more difficult to set aside those special moments of the day when we can remove ourselves from the hectic, frenetic pace of everyday life.Yet finding time to get away, to reflect, to concentrate, or to just let the mind wander freely is important for our overall health. Studies have shown that reducing stress in daily life significantly reduces the risk of heart attacks or the need for heart surgery.

Reflecting on Anger
Another way of dealing with anger is to reflect on its results.We know very well that when we are angry, we do not see the truth clearly. As a result, we may commit many unwholesome actions. Our future life is determined by our intentional actions today, just as our present life is heir to our previous intentional behavior. Intentional actions committed under the influence of anger cannot lead to a happy future.

That's why we should care our manner well. Don't lose temper easily, once we lose temper we never know what we're going to do. By the time we've already finished venting our anger, it is already too late to amend. Think before we act, not do then regret.

A Fresh Start Now
The greatest power you possess for succeeding in life is your understanding that life gives you a fresh start any moment you choose to start fresh.

It's very true everyone possesses that "now" but undeniably there were also a lot of wasted "now"s due to procrastination. What should be done is to appreciate every "now", you will always have it till the end of your life, but the older you get to be, the slower and the lesser it becomes. The "it" refers to the "now". So use it when it is still steady.

Emotions Have an Effect!
Every emotion that surges or trickles through you causes a physical reaction somewhere in the body. A minor upset may take a couple of days to register as a headache or backache; a more vehement explosion of anger or hatred directed at someone could result in a terrible case of ulcers or colitis, because that emotion is pounding your body.

But just as negative emotions have a negative effect on the body, so too do positive emotions have a positive effect.

The emotions here ultimately refer to true inner emotions. By having fake or reluctant positive emotions will cause adverse effect on your inner emotions, subsequently inflict more damage on your health.

We are all teachers and students

We are all teachers and students. You learn (hopefully) from the people in your life, and they have the opportunity to learn from you as well.We are all 'in the same boat' and if we start learning from each other and sharing what we have learned with others, perhaps we can get to where we're going faster.Sometimes we learn from people's mistakes, sometimes from their examples, but always we have the opportunity to look around us and see 'little mirrors' of ourselves.

Afterall, life is just about learning isn't it? A positive learning leads to someone like

or maybe

What about negative learning? It may lead to someone like...

or maybe

Lastly I would like to include the class photo of Stampin Upper 6 Alpha 2005 which shows that we all somewhat had quite acceptable learning during that time.

Please click on the photo for enlargement.

Roadshow in my campus

2007-04-24T01:43:00.000+08:00

The internet connection in my campus isn't very slow, but in camparison with streamyx it is indeed much slower, furthermore with plenty of restrictions and blockages like can't do the downloadings (exception for enjoyable LAN sharing), many websites are blocked such as youtube.com, can't upload things since it takes considerable length of time to successfully upload a tiny picture, and so on and so forth.

But it doesn't take me too long to be able to enjoy the streamyx line again. Back here in Kuching, I'm mildly excited to at least, post as much photos as I can. My first step will be to post some photos of roadshow I took during a carnival in my campus.

My Favourite Movie - Forrest Gump (1994)

2007-04-12T01:54:00.000+08:00

The movie begins with a feather falling to the feet of Forrest Gump sitting at a bus stop in Savannah, Georgia. Forrest tells the story of his life to a woman seated next to him (the listeners at the bus stop change regularly throughout his narration).
Much of Forrest's philosophy comes from his mother. Forrest often recalls her favorite sayings, "Mama always says, 'Life is like a box of chocolates, You never know what you gonna get.'" and "Stupid is as stupid does." ... Click to review the full movie plot

Some Memorable Quotes...

Forrest Gump: My momma always said, "Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get."

Forrest Gump: Mama always said, dying was a part of life.

Lieutenant Daniel Taylor: Have you found Jesus yet, Gump?
Forrest Gump: I didn't know I was supposed to be looking for him, sir. "

Forrest Gump: Lieutenant Dan, what are you doing here?
Lieutenant Daniel Taylor: I'm here to try out my sea legs.
Forrest Gump: But you ain't got no legs, Lieutenant Dan.
Lieutenant Daniel Taylor: [mildly irritated, but understanding] Yes... yes, I know that. You wrote me a letter, you idiot!

Jenny Curran: Do you think I could fly off this bridge, Forrest?
Forrest Gump: What do you mean, Jenny?
Jenny Curran: Nothing.

Forrest Gump: Mama said stupid is what stupid does.

Drill Sergeant: Gump! What's your sole purpose in this army?
Forrest Gump: To do whatever you tell me, drill sergeant!
Drill Sergeant: God damn it, Gump! You're a god damn genius! This is the most outstanding answer I have ever heard. You must have a goddamn I.Q. of 160. You are goddamn gifted, Private Gump. Listen up, people...
Forrest Gump: Now for some reason I fit in the army like one of them round pegs. It's not really hard. You just make your bed real neat and remember to stand up straight and always answer every question with "Yes, drill sergeant."
Drill Sergeant: ...Is that clear?
Forrest Gump: Yes, drill sergeant!

Bubba: My given name is Benjamin Buford Blue, but people call me Bubba. Just like one of them ol' redneck boys. Can you believe that?
Forrest Gump: My name's Forrest Gump. People call me Forrest Gump.

Jenny Curran: Have you ever been with a girl, Forrest?
Forrest Gump: I sit next to them in my Home Economics class all the time.

Mrs. Gump: Remember what I told you, Forrest. You're no different than anybody else is. Did you hear what I said, Forrest? You're the same as everybody else. You are no different.
Principal: Your boy's... different, Miz Gump. His IQ's 75.
Mrs. Gump: Well, we're all different, Mr. Hancock.

Jenny Curran: Do you ever dream, Forrest, about who you're gonna be?
Forrest Gump: Who I'm gonna be?
Jenny Curran: Yeah.
Forrest Gump: Aren't-aren't I going to be me?

Forrest Gump: That day, for no particular reason, I decided to go for a little run. So I ran to the end of the road. And when I got there, I thought maybe I'd run to the end of town. And when I got there, I thought maybe I'd just run across Greenbow County. And I figured, since I run this far, maybe I'd just run across the great state of Alabama. And that's what I did. I ran clear across Alabama. For no particular reason I just kept on going. I ran clear to the ocean. And when I got there, I figured, since I'd gone this far, I might as well turn around, just keep on going. When I got to another ocean, I figured, since I'd gone this far, I might as well just turn back, keep right on going.

Forrest Gump joke

The day finally arrives; Forrest Gump dies and goes to Heaven. He is at the Pearly Gates, met by St Peter himself. However, the gates are closed and Forrest approaches the Gatekeeper.

St Peter says, "Well, Forrest, it's certainly good to see you. We have heard a lot about you. I must inform you that the place is filling up fast, and we've been administering an entrance examination for everyone. The tests are short, but you have to pass them before you can get into Heaven."

Forrest responds, "It shor is good to be here St Peter, sir.. But nobody ever tolt me about any entrance exam. Shor hope the test ain't too hard; life was a big enough test as it was."

St Peter goes on, "Yes, I know, Forrest, but the test is only three questions.

First: What days of the week begin with the letter T?
Second: How many seconds are there in a year?
Third: What is God's first name?"

Forrest leaves to think the questions over. He returns the next day and sees St Peter who waves him up and says, "Now that you have had a chance to think the questions over, tell me your answers."

Forrest says, "Well, the first one -- how many days in the week begin with the letter "T?" Shucks, that one's easy. That'd be Today and Tomorrow.”

The Saint's eyes open wide and he exclaims, "Forrest, that's not what I was thinking, but, you do have a point though, and I guess I didn't specify, so I'll give you credit for that answer. "

"How about the next one?" asks St Peter. "How many seconds in a year?"

"Now that one's harder," says Forrest, "but I thunk and thunk about that and I guess the only answer can be twelve."

Astounded, St Peter says, "Twelve? Twelve? Forrest, how in Heaven's name could you come up with twelve seconds in a year?"

Forest says "Shucks, there gotta be twelve: January 2nd, February 2nd, March 2nd..."

Hold it," interrupts St Peter. "I see where you're going with this, and I see your point, though that wasn't quite what I had in mind, but I'll have to give you credit for that one, too.

Let's go on with the next and final question. Can you tell me God's first name"?

"Sure," Forrest replied, "It's Andy."

"Andy?" exclaimed an exasperated and frustrated St Peter.

"OK, I can understand how you came up with your answers to my first two questions, but just how in the world did you come up with the name of Andy as the first name of God?"

"Shucks, that was the easiest one of all," Forrest replied. "I learnt it from the song. "ANDY WALKS WITH ME, ANDY TALKS WITH ME, ANDY TELLS ME I'M HIS OWN......"

St Peter opened the gate and said: "Run, Forrest. Run."

The Plan

2007-04-01T10:11:00.000+08:00

It’s nothing but a list of things I feel like doing when I go back to Kuching. Hopefully everything in the list can be accomplished.

Mountain Climbing

Mid Year Gathering

Spiderman 3, Pirates of the Caribbean, Fantastic 4

Going for LTC

Meet most of my friends

Visiting Stampin

Learn making chocolate jelly from my mum

Ah Meng Store (In frequent mode)

Watch all the nice movies I downloaded in campus

Reformat my slow hdd

Start on a blog which I have wanted to but find no complacent time

Take photos of the food in Kuching

Others

Hartz Chicken

Laksa @ Tomato Sauce Kueh Tiaw

Grab some long-lost photos from KCL

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My New HP No : 016-5213839

I'm still keeping the old one but didnt really use it frequently.
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Tagged~ (T_T)

2007-03-31T12:39:00.000+08:00

Tagged~ (T_T)
Tagged by : Yen Pin

Each one starts out by telling 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write (in their own blog) 6 weird things as well and state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave each of them a comment letting them know you tagged them and the cycle goes on. Here it goes...

1- I always think too much and that makes me a sensitive person.

2- I just can’t be a happy-go-lucky person. It seems like I always bother about unnecassary things.

3- I always feel sorry for something that I think I shouldn’t have done to others.

4- I’m quite a perfectionist such that I always try to make sure things that I do will show the best outcome. But I always have bad management in the process of doing them.

5- I’m very careless, am I not practical enough or do I always lose concentration?

6- I get irritated easily.

And…there’s another tag….

GETTING TO KNOW HIM ...

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name : Ngiam Tze Teng
Birth Date : 26 December 1986
Current Status : Single
Eye Colour : Dark Brown
Hair Colour : Black
Righty or Lefty : Righty

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
My Heritage : Dad's Hainan, mom's Teo Chew. Mother tongue = Mandarin. Don’t understand Hakka, Hainan and Foo Chow.
My Fears : The Future
My Perfect Pizza : No specific one, as long as it's tasty...

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
My Thoughts First Waking Up : What’s my plan today? Planning leads to initiative and initiative leads to action. But it still depends on how good my plan is.
My Bedtime :
Previously - Weekdays- about 2 am , Weekends - about 3-4am
Now - Weekdays – about 12 am, Weekends – about 12 am as well.
My Most Missed Memory : The period when I was in secondary school. (Especially form 4-5)

LAYER 4: MY PICK.
Pepsi or Coke : Coke, but seldom…
McDonald's or Burger King : “Burger King”, but seldom…
Single or Group Dates : Single
Adidas or Nike : Nike. Duno why I think Adidas is more lakia-ish.
Tea or Nestea : Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla : Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee : Cappucino

LAYER 5: DO YOU...
Smoke : Never, but sometimes somehow I have secondhand smoke.
Curse : Before : Yes , Now : Hardly
Take a Shower : Yes
Have a Crush : On someone? Does not have. Did have.
Think You've Been In Love : No
Go To School : Yes, I’m still a scholar.
Want To Marry Someone : Not now, it’s too early to talk about it.
Believe In Yourself : Yes.
Think You're A Health Freak : Always have physical exercise, still trying to change my improper eating style

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST
Drank Alcohol : Hardly, Ais Kacang tastes better than that.
Gone To The Mall : …
Been On Stage : Yes, but it’s never for speech.
Eaten Sushi : Yes.
Dyed Your Hair : Never.

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER...
Played A Stripping Game : No
Changed Who You Were To Fit In : Our characters are what we do when we think no one is looking. Sometimes to fit in certain circumstances, the character slightly changes.

LAYER 8: AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To have marriage : Before 28

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL...
Best Eye Colour : As long as it’s normal
Best Hair Colour : As long as it’s normal
Short Hair or Long Hair : not bald, longer than guys

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A Minute Ago : Typing this
An Hour Ago : Having Breakfast
4.5 Hours Ago : Sleeping
1 Month Ago : Struggling for stability in myself
1 Year Ago : Waiting for offer letter from higher education department

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : my dearest family, my beloved aunties and uncles as well as other relatives, friends whom I consider close to me. Besides, I love taking photographs, and videos for memories. Love to know more about the origin of the universe, the space and everything. Where did we come from? What was the earliest discovery in space? Basically in the earth everything is logic and always has proofs and explanations. But there is something which is always indescribable and unimaginable, because

Earliest existence of the universe = Origin of the universe divided by 0 = infinity
(so basically there is no explanation)

I hate : I hate pretenders, and those who are damn kepo-ish until they tend to mind every little thing others do. Insincere friends who usually comes to you only when they need you.
I hide : When I cry…
I miss : the old days.
I need : To learn how to let go something, to try to act maturely and wisely, to care more about my family and friends, to plan for my future, to live a very normal and happy life that not only me gets satisfied, but my family too will always be in the relieved state.

Finally… I tag :
1. Edmund Yung
2. Rachel Leong
3. Melissa Chong
4. Voon Su Han
5. Alison Chai
6. Kim Ong

A Plain Blog

2007-03-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

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The internet connection in USM Engineering Campus is very poor until I took so much time waiting for blogspot.com to fully load its page, really miss the streamyx at home. By the way, I will be going back to Kuching again on 23rd of April, and will be back to Penang again on 5th of July, so I will have about 2 months of holiday in Kuching.

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This is going to be a plain blog with just texts and a few photos. And it's a boring blog :(

First of all, I would like to congratulate the Gaporians who have got good results in their SPM and STPM. Obtaining 4.00 NGMP is something that worths Stampin proud of and it happens for the first time in history of Stampin Form Six. (Thumbs Up for Chee How). And another thumbs up for Wan Ming who scored 13A1s in SPM, also first time in the history of Stampin. And then, a few more thumbs up as well for Fu Chun, Chi Lai, Yin Hon, Liang Shiu, Davin who've scored well in STPM. :D

And then... I would briefly describe some of my own opinions to those heading for IPTA...

Life in UNI is more or less like life in college, as in how packed the timetable is, with plenty of assignments, projects and more. The only difference is university is of higher level. Is studying in university tougher than studying in form 6? Well, I think it depends on the way we conceive the lifestyle in UNI. If you’re a happy-go-lucky person who just wants to enjoy life to its fullest and is always carefree about your performance in study and in curricular activities (copy assignments with little or no understanding, simply do projects as long as it’s “done”), and never really have specific aims in life, then life in UNI should be “Piece of Cake” for you. In contrary, if you’re the one of opposite type, then life in UNI should be tougher for you because you tend to mind more about how well you perform and you always have great aims in life, great future lies ahead of you if you never give up your targets. You don’t want just a “paper” with “Bachelor of Something” written on it, what you want is not only that piece of “paper” for recognition, but also to succeed as somebody that has profound influence in life.

Undoubtedly, in form 6 there are more syllabus than in university or college, and all the books are extremely thick, have headache every time the hands are on the books. I usually keep quite a distance apart from my books, like 1 or 2 meters, but I just don’t understand why they are getting older and older so rapidly. Needless to say, form 6 is an extremely crucial stage and those who’ve got themselves drowning in it will certainly need to try their best to not waste their 1.5 years of life. Life is short and it’s not worth wasting 1.5 years unless you really mature a lot throughout that period. The most critical part in form 6 is the STPM, provided if you manage to arrange your time well and study the right way within the one and a half years then you will be able to score good results, unless you are really unlucky.

University or college is different, there are more semesters and for each semester there are about 4 months of lectures. Although the syllabus are not that much, it’s much more hectic having had to finish plenty of assignments, projects, tasks, and there will be a lot of tests too, some more with the final exam just around the corner, and you only have 4 months. Experience it, and you’ll know it. It’s just a part of life that we as scholars have to go through because next time in the working society we always have to work under stress if we were to have prominent and tough careers (Engineers, Doctors, Architects, Pharmacists, Accountants, etc). Whether we’re still in secondary school, college or university, be it tough or not we still have to keep our aims firm and not only should we excel in academic, personal attitudes, socials, sports and extra activities should not be forgotten too.

Basically those who take STPM are the ones heading for IPTA. So, what should be done by those who just got their STPM results is figure out which field of study they are interested in. Think in depth so there is no regret in the future.

There is still much time left to make a wise decision. Try to imagine, what actually do you want to be in the future?

A pharmacist? A doctor? An engineer? Or an accountant? If engineering, which field of engineering do you want to further study, electrical, civil or mechanical engineer? There are plenty of choices, so take your time to do some imaginations and research.

Or become a teacher?

Do consult SUPP (Sarawak) they can help you in making your IPTA choices. They know quite well about the NGMP requirements for you to enter IPTA. Nevertheless, a website which has the records of past year statistics can also be found at
--> http://www.quanshengweb.com/ <-- Don’t forget about something… Scholarship! Those STPM high achievers should try to apply for scholarships that are available now, and before or during IPTA intake.

Scholarships (Source from lowyat.net)
Petronas Scholarship
Yayasan Tenaga Nasional Scholarship
United World College Scholarship
Bank Negara Scholarship
SC Scholarship Award
JPA loan
http://esila.jpa.gov.my/portaljpa.php

Khazanah Scholarship
http://www.khazanah.com.my/scholarship.htm

Shell Scholarship for Overseas studies
http://www.shell.com/home/Framework?siteId...rship_ds.html#1
Closing date: 31 March 2007

http://malaysia-scholarship.net/

Seniors will be willing to give their opinions, or share their experience so feel free to look for us if there's something you want to know about.

Siong Kai is holding GAMUDA scholarship so if you want to know more about GAMUDA scholarship, can look for him too.

Lastly, congratulations once again to STPM and SPM high achievers of SMK DPHA Gapor Stampin. And hopefully, the next batch can repeat the so called "Stampin's Glory".

Big group went visiting

2007-02-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

Today, the 3rd day of Chinese New Year, me and my friends went bai nian at about 10 houses starting from Wan Jiun's house, then Cikgu Lee, Kevin, Chiou Yann, Me, Alice, Micheal, Siong Kai, Victor, Chin Sue, Joanne, Tay... do I miss out anyone?

There was indeed a big group of us consisting of nearly 30 ppl, let me recall who were they... erm...

1. Wan Jiun
2. Wen Liang
3. Pei Ni
4. Jun Lin (Not Chiung Lin)
5. Alice
6. Lee Sze
7. Kah Yee
8. Ai Ling
9. Melissa
10. Ker Sing
11. Victor
12. Siong Kai
13. Ying Ying
14. Micheal
15. Joanne
16. Maw Jin
17. Lee Ping
18. Sophia
19. Chiou Yann
20. Wen Ting
21. Su Han
22. Hui Xin
23. Nguan Soon
24. Kevin
25. David
26. Chang Ted
27. Tze Teng
28. Pravind

Do I miss out anyone?

Sorry my friends, for not serving most of you properly in my house today, there were just too many of you, and I'm still the same old tzeteng who got embarrassed quite easily in certain social situations, didn't really know how to act like a man with great calmness. Hopefully there is improvement next year. Anyway, today was a great day, I guess most of us really enjoyed ourselves. It was really nice to meet each other again, although we got very tired after visited so many houses.

Set to gather at Wan Jiun's house at 9am, although I was a little bit late (9.45am sth). There were only a few of us driving and initially, Chang Ted (Da Ge) was very worried about the transport. He has always been like a big brother who takes initiative to settle things down.

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Ted : Teng you got drive?
Teng : No of course, I walked here, u didn't c my shirt kena raindrop meh?
Ted : Shit la, we have so many ppl here, really need more drivers la, if not how can we go bai nian...

(After that he kept worrying non-stop and asking around if there're others driving)

A while later...

Ted : Teng when wanna leave? We at (Cikgu Lee's house) very long oledi, can't let siong kai, tay, lee sze, etc (at WJ's house) wait that long la...
Teng : Nvm la, just let them wait for 1-2 hours.. it's ok one... they got topics to talk mah..
Ted : Not good la really, have to leave faster...

(A while later we left and gathered, went to another house)
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That's the Chang Ted our big brother of same age, never changed since last time.

We had our perfect CNY lunch thanks to Micheal. Her mum cook us a nice meal :D ... Another significant person today, Siong Kai, who had various CNY quotes in his mind was unstoppably expressing his extraordinary wishes quotes to everyone differently. "Ma Dao Gong Chen", "Sheng Ti Jian Kang" and a lot more that I actually never heard, unlike the rest of us just saying merely the same thing everytime ... "Happy New Year..... happy new year... happy new year.... and yet still happy new year..."

It's really nice to have met Ai Ling and Melissa today, we haven't been meeting each other for more than 2 years. I thought Ai Ling is in China pursuing her study and only today I found out she's in UPM, Selangor, that means still very near to us. As for Melissa, the last time I met her was in her house, during her birthday in year 2004.

Some photos for glance.

Group photo taken in Tay's house. (Last Stand)

Legally drunk...

Chang Ted, who hasn't been back to kch for some time, was craving for ang paos until he had to take them off the walls.